Some things I likey right now!

Goats Milk Soap

Tiffany and Co Perfume

Kleenex tissues...love the size!

On sale this Christmas at $50...BARGAIN

IVF TREATMENT....Here we come

It's quite bizarre really...in that DH and I are perfectly healthy as far as TTC goes. We have had some miscarriages along the way, but nothing that would make me think that we would ever be in this boat. But then again who does.

So we had our latest meeting at IVF Sydney today, and it went better than we expected. Prof's offsider spoke to us in regards to our last 2 months on clomid. In one deep breath she said she is just as frustrated as we are, and would like us to move directly to In vitro fertilisation. She then took us through a lovely little book 'Your pathway of care' and explained to us the process. We then signed our life away, to be honest I never discussed with DH the costs of the treatment even though I knew what the damage was, but in our case we are so desperately wanting a child of our own so no money is too much to ask for us. We will do anything and everything humanly possible.

So here we come January 29th.... Hormone Injections start!!!

This time of year

I feel like I have been a ping pong ball bouncing all over the place. Thank god I have two more weeks of work, come on Christmas Party!

 Doesn't it seem like everyone wants to catch up before Christmas...I don't get it why before Christmas why can't they say in the New Year?

Well I'm booked up!!! I had my third market stall for Missy Lou on Sunday, it went well, but whoa what a hot day! I'll be back for the last market of the year in 2 weeks. It seems like easy work, but it's hard keeping up especially when I have been inundated with orders off facebook and ebay. OH and hubby and I stopped via a club on the way home and I won my second ham in 3 days! What on earth am I going to do with two 5kg ham I'll never know...guess I could be nice and share it :P

Tomorrow is D day at the IVF clinic...another wasted month gone by with nothing but a BFN...so off to hand the prof another $600...hope to see him a little more than 5 minutes this time. Actually because I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself I told DH that I'm going to time on my stopwatch how long he actually sits with us..whoops I mean float in and out of the room. DH an I have made the decision if he isn't going to listen to us ...were out of there to find us a new specialist. Do you think I'm being silly? Should I just wait on? I'm scared that if we do leave then we have to start the testing all over again and I really don't want to do that. Uhhhhhhhhh the decisions.

It's days like these.....

I often wonder if I will stay in my chosen profession for the rest of my life, to be honest I'm not sure. I have days where I think why am I doing this to myself, and other days where I love what I do. But in all honestly I think it's only human to have these thoughts.


Well today I had one of my classes complete and hand in an assessment task. The brief was to design and make a birthday cake for a special occasion. I was overwhelmed with the talent and creative flair these students displayed thought the making and decorating of their cakes. I am just so proud and thrilled with their end results. So I thought I would show you one of my favourite ones, now remember this was made by a 15 year old!!!!

Not liking what I see

Over a year ago now I saw a photo that horrified me...ok not just one photo, there were hundreds. I was so disgusted with myself, how could I let myself get to this? 

The real trouble came when my little brother was getting married and I bought a lovely designer dress, a bit slinky, a bit of bling, a little bit so not right for my body shape. Well to cut a long story short, I ended up buying 3 dresses. I just wasn't happy in myself. 

So the decision came to lose weight, i was scared of getting diabetes and I was over telling myself you look good, when clearly I didn't. The day came when I made the decision to join WW. I have to say it was the best decision I had ever made. I had previously done JC for 5 months, I lost weight at first but then I was totally over the pre processed food. So WW was a nice change, it was common sense!

I lost over 8kg on WW but I quit, that's me in a nutshell, off I go full steam ahead then I get bored. So yesterday when we went off to a wedding, I wore a cheapo dress, but most importantly I wore my Bridget Jones sucker inners. It was so hot all I could think of was getting into the bathrooms and ripping them off. But I didn't because beauty is pain right?

TODAY the decision has come to get on the bandwagon again and try to get a little bit healthier! My aim by the end of January is to lose 5kg. To be honest I also think that I need something to take my mind off this TTC thing as well.

So today my lovelies, is my first day of a better me, a healthier me, a happier me...and I will be sharing my journey with you all...and just a side note it may make me more accountable if more people know about this little 5kg to lose!

Without further adieu... this is the old Lou..... 

Missy Lou

This business thing is hard work. Remembering to hand out business cards is my big downfall. I have the cutest little business cards, everyone has commented how much they love them, but I forget I have them... whoops.


On Sunday I had another market stall which went well. I have decided to take a different direction and price all my items $10 and under. That way whilst I'm not making a huge amount of profit I have a larger turnover of stock. Oh and the quality of items is a real hit.


I'm also finding I'm having alot of repeat buyers off ebay, which is great! And people contacting me for little clothing parties. 


but what I'm looking for now is a way of 'spreading the word'. And I have no idea! So I started a facebook fan page. So far so good 73 followers...but I need more! So I have opened up a HUGE Christmas Sale and Competition...fingers crossed I can hit 100 followers by January.

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Missy-Lou-Childrens-Designer-Bargains/136920609669088

Depression

DEPRESSION is not a sign of weakness but a sign that

 you have been trying to be strong for too long. Put this as

 your post if you or someone you know has or has 


suffered from depression. Will you do it and leave it as 


your post for at least an hour? Most people won't,  1 in 3 


of us will suffer at some...... point in our lives. Show your 


support! ♥

Cry Baby

Oh what a cry baby I have turned out to be! This clomid is emotional stuff. But I really can't complain apart from tiredness and crying I am a ME! 


Last night I travelled about an hour in peak hour traffic to visit my friend who has come up from Melbourne, and I cried. CRIED that I love my car, CRIED that I was going to see her, CRIED that her daughter is just a doll, CRIED that I was stuck in peak hour traffic, CRIED that a beautiful some came on the radio...CRIED...no joke! 


So after flooding the car with tears.....I decided to walk today!

Another lost month

Well after being 4 days late.. AF has arrived :( 


Nothing much more to say...shattered...over it.

Do you want a BARGAIN??

I love it when I stumble across a bargain. The other day I was at my beautician and she was telling me about this new way of promoting her business. It's called a Zoupon Cupon. Basically they advertise on tv and the Internet and sell packages at ridiculously low prices. 
So off I went to Zoupon and bought myself a 3 hour beauty pamper which included mani, pedi, eyebrow wax, hair treatment, wash and blow dry and 1 hour massages...all for $39.99!!!!! The great thing is I not only saved $145 the package can be used within a year! There are special deals everyday for Sydney, Melbourne, Adelaide, Perth and Adelaide.


So why don't you pop over there and have a look...let me know what you think!!!


http://zoupon.com.au

Market

Well I survived my second market experience! What a day...28 degrees, sunny, setting up by 6.30 m meant that I had to get up at 5am and drive 40 minutes to the venue. But all in all in was extremely successful...I was so flat out I forgot to take a photo until we were half way packed up.....so excuse the photo. And the great news is they want me back...so I will be back in two weeks. Now time to go buy stock.

My 5 minutes of fame

Selling

This Sunday I have a market stall at a huge market up the central coast. I haven't had a stall there before so I'm not too sure how I will go.  I have spent the afternoon conducting a stocktake of goods which I will be taking with me.


I will be selling some stock from my little Designer Children's wear business... I'm just not sure how they will sell there. My may principle of the business is to sell everything $15 and under.


here are some items which I will be selling...

Travel Bug

I love to travel! I have been luck enough to travel overseas numerous times growing up...and twice overseas since DH and I have been married.


After the shocking week I had last week... not to mention year I succumbed to Internet pressure and booked another holiday for next April. But shhhhhh it's a surprise for hubby for his Christmas present! He is going to KILL me when he finds out. DH is money conscious atm...not like me :) 


Did I mention Internet pressure...who wouldn't book a weeks getaway to Malaysia when the flight only cost $800 return for TWO people...massive bargain!


So now I am thinking of ways I could wrap up the tickets for DH for Christmas day...any ideas?

Are we there yet???

What IF: A Portrait of Infertility

You just have to...LAUGH

O.M.G that is all I can say about the day I have had today! 


I woke up still sick and feeling sorry for myself, I dragged myself to work and lasted a whole of 2 hours when my boss told me to go home. On my way home I remembered that hubby had relocated my house keys over the weekend and this morning I couldn't find them. Not to worry he would come home earlier than he normally does...but not 10 am early!


As I pulled up to the house I sat in the car trying to think of a way to break in.... I decided to break in through one of the windows....well that took me 20 minutes, and may I add not easy to do with 8 cm heels!


I hoisted myself up and through the window...went straight into the bathroom had a shower, chucked on a singlet and my pj pants with socks...stuff the bra!


About 10 minutes later i hear a knock on the door...'POLICE'... I stuck my head out the window and waved them over as the front door was deadlocked. I spent 5 minutes explaining to the police officers what had happened, not even a half smile cracked. One hoisted themselves through the window to come and check my licence. As I walked into the back room of the house all I could see was foam and stuffing everywhere. The dog were minding at the moment had torn apart my bucket chair pillow and spread it all through the house! Embarrassed was NOT the word. I showed the officer my licence and off he went back through the window whilst i just sat there looking at the mess in tears! 


So to sum it up.... felt sick...came home...no keys...broke in...neighbour called police...police questioned me...came through the window...stuffing and foam everywhere...I'm furious...showed licence...went to sleep.


NOW WHAT???????

Clomid

Well it's day 2 of you know what tomorrow...so I start my first dose of clomid. To be honest I am anticipating the awful side effects...just to prepare myself.


Just to make sure I keep busy I'm holding a children's designer clothing market stall up the central coast on Sunday, it's my second stall there so I hope it goes well!!!

Beautiful Bali

Me...drinking coffee Lawak...poo coffee

Volcano

Monkey at the Monkey Temple Ubud

Private beach 

Beautiful sunset from the amazing Rockbar

I'm B.A.C.K.....

Don't you just love jetlag? After a magical trip to Bali for 8 days I arrived back in Sydney at 7.30 am having just had a 15 minute catnap during a 6 hour flight. To make matters worst the line up at Sydney airport taxi rank is something I have never encountered in my life, and note to self I will organise a lift next time.


Anyway I will post more about my little trip later during the week... Having just had 15 minutes sleep, I got ready for our IVF appointment with Prof. I was a little disappointed to only find out a doctor from India would be seeing us today as she is here in Australia to work with him and learn new techniques to take back to India. Maybe it's the lack of sleep, but to tell you the truth I am bitterly disappointment that not only does he cost alot to see, but I only seem to see him in the last 5 minutes of the consult. Oh well..maybe as things progress in this journey will I have a consult solely with him.


All the test results came back..and we are all fine! Everything is working well for hubby and myself...so there is a bit of a question mark.


We have been given strict instruction to you know 2 days a week and more during the LH surge. I have been given a prescription of clomid which i have to take for the next 2 months...so FINGERS CROSSED. Our next appointment is in the first week of December unless we get those 2 big fat lines!


So that's it for me today, slightly grumpy and fatigued...I'm off to bed to dream of things to come...we hope.


xxxxxx

OUTCH!!!!

Outch...Outch...Outch...OUTCH!! That is the only polite way I can explain the procedure which I had at 11.30 Thursday morning.


It all started with the Imaging center ringing to move my appointment till 11.30am, which was fine because I had a last night gossiping with friends and since I didn't get home till 2am I could have a nice long sleep in. Come 10 am I think I jumped out of bed, showered, drank my 2 glasses of water as indicated by the doctor, got changed then headed off to the hospital.


I told hubby there was no need to come because it would only take and hour or so, and there is no point him taking the day off...wish I kept my mouth shut. It took me 24 minutes to get to the hospital by the time I parked the car, waited for the lift...STOP...yes the lift bloody stopped on the way up to the imaging center. By this time I thought I was going to wet myself. After a short wait and me anxiously pressing the emergency button, the lift started again...phew. But I did a boo boo.... on my way running up the corridor I made a v-line to the toilet and emptied my bladder....WHOOPS.


The wait in the waiting room was short, as I entered the room it was so dark, not much light, this reclining chair in the middle with a big plasma tv in the corner and the ultrasound machine on my right as I laid down. The lady was lovely, she asked me to lie down as she was going to perform the first ultrasound on the outside of my stomach. She talked me through what I could see on the plasma....and she had a giggle when she showed me the 1ml of urine I had in my bowl...whoops.


Next up was the internal ultrasound, and another doctor came in the room to watch. I didn't mind it, a little uncomfortable but ok. Always interesting to see your bits on the big screen :)


Last up.... the Hycosy with contrast, and yes another doctor came in the room to perform the procedure...great  now there were 3... I remember thinking well my dignity has gone now. The doctor explained the procedure and how I would get minor cramping when the saline and then dye is inserted up a catheter like wire with a balloon on the end. The spectrum went up and in, followed by the wire. In goes the internal ultrasound probe again and the procedure began. The pain was ok at this stage. When the wire was being passed through it felt wrong, and foreign. 


Next he dye and saline was inserted OMG...this was the worst, it was explained to me as period pain but sorry, to me this was like someone squeezing my fallopian tubes and ovaries. This part took the longest, as my fallopian tubes were not being cooperative. I think she flushed the right tubes and ovaries 4 times and the left 5. The pain was hard to internalise like I usually do as I had nothing to grad onto, so I just let out a moan. 


After 40 minutes the worst was over, everything was taken out...all done. As I sat up I felt a gush of fluid between my legs, I forgot to use the pad they gave me. 


I have had a sneak peak at the report and all says everything is OK. So onto Bali tomorrow and then in 10 days fro now when we arrive back we have our next appointment with Professor. 

Bali....Here I come

I honestly can't wait..I am in desperate need of a holiday. It has been nearly 3 years since our honeymoon, so this one better be good!


We are going away for 10 days, sun, sand, surf, and hopefully my last cocktail!!! We arrive back at 7am, and then in a few hours we find out our path for IVF....gosh the anticipation!


Anyway I leave you with a few pics of our divine resort the hotel is situated on a high cliff overlooking the Indian Ocean .... want to come?

Outch!

OK I'm not very good with needles, but today's needle didn't hurt one bit. I left home at 6.30am and got to St George private Hospital at 6.54, went straight upstairs to the IVF room....bloods were taken pretty much straight away. Thank goodness. 


5 viles of blood were taken, I looked the other way but I felt my hand cramping, so I had a sneak peek and saw that my hand was stiff and purple! Gosh how much blood do they really need?


So onto Thursday morning now for my internal ultrasound, I just hope that it can be done as my periods came so late, there is a big question mark over the procedure!


I have a busy week this week at work, and then hubby and I are off to Bali for a relaxing break...can't wait!


Thanks for all your support MWA xxxx

YAY

Well AF has finally arrived, which was on Saturday whilst I was at a wedding...I have left a message at the IVF center to make a booking for tomorrow sometime for a blood test. 


My only problem is that i'm a bit stuck with what to do, I'm on a school excursion tomorrow at Shark island for the while day so I was thinking to just show up at the center without a referral at 7am.....


What do you think?

Come Onnnnnnnnn

Honestly, my luck this week and lets not mention this year must be the worst I have ever had.

Tomorrow morning at 7am I am booked into have bloods, one of the many things Professor has requested. The only problem is that the bloods need to be taken on either day 1 or day 2 of my cycle....and when was I due, Wednesday, and what hasn't come....yes it's not raining over here. I just can't believe my luck.

So fingers crossed....I have under 12 hours to show...you know what.

Where to from here?

Well it's the day after the BIG appointment. The waiting room was lovely and so cosy, I loved the paintings on the wall and the staff were so friendly. There were about 8 of us in the waiting room, some couples and some single women and men. I looked around and thought to myself how sad I felt for all of us. Were they here for the first time, or have they been here before. A part of me felt comfortable in this little room and the other part felt scared...well excuse my french...shit less. 


After an hour wait, it was our turn to be called in. But wait on, this isn't the doctor who I booked to see. I wanted the Professor. We were introduced to this young female doctor, i kept saying to myself but she is so young. I looked at hubby I could tell he was nervous sitting on the edge of the seat, I kind of hovered on the edge of my seat and leaning back occasionally. We were asked some pretty invasive and what I feel were embarrassing questions (all may I add we answered no too). I couldn't help laughing at the question hubby was asked, 'have you ever fathered a baby', I thought I was going to burst out laughing, or turn to him and say...well thanks for letting me know. Of course the answer was NO.


The meeting flew, and I knew I should have written things down. We were given a heap of reading material, and referrals for bloods, seaman analysis and one for a hysterosalpingogram -  to simplify, an internal ultrasound where dye is inserted to check for any blockages. 


Hubby and I were taken into a room to take his bloods, that's when the professor stuck his head through the door and said get this man a lolly pop he looks like he is going to faint. We laughed. He then disappeared for a few minutes and then reappeared, 
Prof: 'so how many years have you been trying'...
Me: 'five' 
Prof: 'well lets get this show on the road hey' 
Me: 'yeehaa'


I think the ice was then broken, prof seems so lovely and a bit quirky.


So onto Friday it is, when I have my blood test. So maybe we will get our Christmas gift after all.......

Today Is THE day.....

  Today is the day we have our first appointment with an IVF Specialist.... I have feelings of excitement, agitation, apprehensiveness, anxious and the list can go on. 


At 9.45 today (ok lets make it 10.30, we all know how much specialists are always running over time) we meet with the man of our dreams, the man who can hopefully direct us, guide us and council us to finally realising the dream of us becoming parents. 


After reading lost of people's posts on a forum I visit in regards to assisted fertility I never in my wildest thoughts imagined we would be in the same boat. Up until now I thought I was ok with all of this, now I feel like a failure. Fie years of trying has brought us to this little moment where we put gods work in someone elses hands. 


So off we go, to the meeting that could change our lives.......

Daily Thought....

This is oh so true!

THE dress

Why is it when there is no event or special occasion to go to I can find exactly what I want from the dress, shoes, handbag....I could go on and on!
 Fast forward to this weekend coming, I have a formal, a wedding and a christening then a graduation to attend. My panic set in last night, I have bought a dress...OK three dresses but I hate them all! And god forbid I tell hubby I in fact have 3 different ones and I am considering going and buying a fourth.
So guess what .I did today... I went and bought a fourth....and a fifth dress.
I don't know what came over me, why on earth did I buy two dresses I hear you ask...because the lovely lady in the shop felt so sorry for me she gave them to me for a steal...all $800 of it!


OMG...what have I done? 

Daily Quote

Peek - a- Boo

Well here I am, back in blog world, who are my followers...just little old me! But thats ok, because this is a new outlet for me to share my thoughts, my passions and my life. Am I funny... I don't think so, am I passionate...yes about oh so many things and my thoughts...well they come and go and turn into dreams which one day I hope will be reality.